Writing about Suicide…

Let’s face it, suicide is a touchy subject most don’t want to talk about, let alone write about. In 2012, when I began putting together the first draft of the Station Series, I wasn’t thinking about all the negative stigma the subject matter endures, instead I was thinking about how to give my characters a second chance after making the heartbreaking choice to take their own life. And I wrote the book with my Aunt Teresa in mind, who took her life a short time before I began writing my first book. She was an amazing person with a huge personality and even huger laugh. She was my biggest cheerleader in life, helping me through some tough personal times. I guess in a way, I wrote the book for her so that I could imagine her “spirit” or “energy” moving on and never dying out.

The first book has obviously gotten negative feedback about tying in suicide with humor or moments of light teenager romantic angst. I understand that, but I didn’t want to write a book that sucked all the breath out of one’s soul. I wanted to write a book that left someone smiling after and thinking, ‘What if…’. Which was why there are scenes meant to be light and fluffy…

I’ve waded through enough of Abby’s memories to understand why she almost threw herself off the top of a tree. The next few days would be critical, so I crack my imaginary knuckles and stretch my imaginary neck, and roll my imaginary sleeves up to prepare myself for this tough case. Abby is going to need all of the training I’ve had and probably more, to successfully pull her back from the edge she seems ready to launch herself from.

It’s not going to happen on MY shift, kiddo. We’ll find a way out of the dark, don’t you worry. I have big hopes for you…but for now…baby steps. When’s the last time you’ve had a candy bar?

For girls, chocolate fixes almost everything.

But the story isn’t about fixing a suicidal person’s world with sweets. I think this is something perhaps a few readers may not understand. It’s about redirecting and offering up alternatives and trying to help those in need by showing them they are worth living. And doing all that with a little humor and things that most YA’s will relate to.

When I first published Dying to Forget, I had no idea what would come out of it. I thought it was a creative peek into a fictional afterlife. I didn’t know it was going to touch some in a rather powerful way. Without going into details, I’ve received several messages from readers who thanked me for publishing this series. People, just like you and me, who happened to stumble upon my little series at a down time in their life, and then wrote me via my author page or email to say my words helped keep them from cutting themselves, or actually taking their lives, or that this book helped them get over the loss of a family member who committed suicide. To say I was blown away is a gross understatement. Some of these people I’ve stayed in contact with and become friends with online. And I love them all.

Because I’ve been there. I know what it’s like to lose a loved one to suicide. The guilt and sadness that follows. I know what it’s like to feel down and unreachable and as if the world just doesn’t need me. But you know what, I’m still here. And you are still here. And that’s the way it should be.

This week’s Throwback Thursday is an homage to all those impacted in whatever way by self-harm, suicide or the loss of a loved one. I hope that if you do read Dying to Forget, or any of the Station books, that you’ll take with you one thing: hope.

Our hope is that you left an impression that will make a difference...

You can find DYING to FORGET for free on Amazon, Nook and Smashwords.

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I hope you enjoy the story and take something positive away with you.

Happy Reading, Everyone! Be kind to yourself and your loved ones.

Throwback Thursday

It’s already been over a year since DYING to FORGET the first book of The Station series was published, can you believe that? For a little TBT, here’s a snippet from the book. It’s FREE if you want to read more, so, what’s stopping ya? Not a thing! *wink*

I thump my hands on the steering wheel to the beat of the music and ignore the rising number on the speedometer. I have every street in between Bree’s house and my apartment memorized. I floor the pedal as we head up a hill, and let the car barrel down the other side at nearly fifty miles an hour. A sliver of moon is all that shows in the inky sky, and it seems even the stars are hiding.

It’s Bree’s scream that startles me out of my music reverie but I see the car backing out of the driveway too late, and the front end of my Focus slams into the back of the Honda. The last thing I see as my body slams forward into the airbag is Bree’s beautiful brown hair billowing out around her before her body crashes through the windshield.

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What are you reading this weekend?

Another Friday has arrived! And this means the weekend is here and I can squeeze in some extra reading time. For me, I’ll be in the world of ‘To Kill A Mockingbird’…with a little touch of Lois Lowry on the side. But what about you – what’s on your reading agenda this weekend??

I have a few freebies you can check out that I’ve read myself or are on my TBR! And don’t forget – I HOPE YOU FIND ME and DYING to FORGET are free for you as well! Read on for some more free books from a few of my author friends…

KSHaigwoodSAVE MY SOUL, by K.S. Haigwood

Kendra Larkin had everything going in the right direction. Her life was seemingly perfect, and she wouldn’t have changed a thing about it. Unfortunately, the course of her life was about to be forever altered. A tragic rappelling accident lands her on Dr. Adam Chamberlain’s operating table.

She agrees to a deal proposed by a guardian angel to help save the soul of the man who is both her doctor and soulmate. If she is successful, she gets to keep her life. However, she later learns that it isn’t just her life that’s in jeopardy, but her soul as well.

Even with the help of her handsome guardian angel, Rhyan, it seems there is no happy ending in sight. Torn between her newly discovered love of Rhyan, and the undeniable attraction she has for Adam, Kendra finds herself at a crossroad. With Adam’s steadfast rejection of God, and his guardian demon conspiring against her, she fears her soul may already be lost.

Will she find a way to overcome the evil her life is suddenly burdened with? Or will Adam’s guardian demon win both their souls and make Kendra his own personal puppet in Hell?

MStorkCONNER, by Miranda Stork

Erin is a young psychologist, with no time for anything but her work, and unable to remember anything about her past. She leads an uneventful life, but a lonely one, in which she secretly wishes for a soulmate…

Conner is an unusual patient who approaches her, thrusting her into a strange world of darkness that runs beneath our own. He believes himself to be a creature of legend-a werewolf. But he also draws Erin with a roguish charm, and an irresistible feeling that seems to bind them together…

Conner desperately tries to save her from an unknown evil that pursues her with a relentless passion that crosses centuries, an evil that once took her very soul away, somewhere in Erin’s lost memories.

As she becomes more entwined in a series of events that will remind her of who she really is, will she make it away from the oncoming darkness unscathed…?


A chance encounter in the dark leads eighteen-year-old Daniel and the girl who stumbles across him to profess their love for each other. But this love has conditions: they agree it will only last one hour and it will only be make-believe.

When their hour is up and the girl rushes off like Cinderella, Daniel tries to convince himself that what happened between them only seemed perfect because they were pretending it was perfect. Moments like that with girls like her don’t happen outside of fairytales.

One year and one bad relationship later, his disbelief in insta-love is stripped away the day he meets Six: a girl with a strange name and an even stranger personality. But Daniel soon realizes that fairytales don’t exist, and unfortunately for Daniel, finding Cinderella doesn’t guarantee their happily ever after…it only further threatens it.

THE KISS, a Raptor Retreat Anthology (Various Authors)

A kiss is a simple communication. It can also be an exchange, a betrayal, an assault, a promise, a hope…or it could be a goodbye. The intimacy of a kiss cannot be denied. Whether shared, stolen or simply dreamed of, its recipient will be affected. Thirty-one stories by authors from around the world will tease your imagination as you anticipate ‘The Kiss’ in each weird or wonderful tale.

This cross-genre anthology contains stories by Kate Aaron, Saxon Andrew, Jacques Antoine, Alison Blake, E. B. Boggs, Shirley Bourget, Ben Cassidy, Jason Deas, Sharon Delarose, Meghan Ciana Doidge, Suzy Stewart Dubot, Corrie Fischer, Brandon Hale, Traci Tyne Hilton, Colleen Hoover, Mona Ingram, J. L. Jarvis, Elizabeth Jasper, Anna J. McIntyre, Jess Mountifield, C. A. Newsome, S. Patrick O’Connell, Suzie O’Connell, Jeanette Raleigh, J. R. C. Salter, Molly Snow, Holli Marie Spaulding, Cleve Sylcox, Robert Thomas, Chris Ward and George Wier.


If you’d asked me a week ago, I would have told you that the best cupcakes were dark chocolate with chocolate cream cheese icing, that dancing in a crowd of magic wielders — the Adept — was better than sex, and that my life was peaceful and uneventful. Just the way I liked it. That’s what twenty-three years in the magical backwater of Vancouver will get you — a completely skewed sense of reality. Because when the dead werewolves started showing up, it all unraveled … except for the cupcake part. That’s a universal truth.


An autobiography about young love that ends up lasting a lifetime, I was a drummer she was a dancer is a raw, romantic true story we can all relate to. Set in a small Midwest college in 1978, the author meets and falls in love with a beautiful young dancer from the east coast. They are from two different worlds, but their love for each other bridges the huge gaps in distance, and socio-economic backgrounds. She was from a fairly well to do and educated family and he was the first person in his family to attend college. She was raised in a house that had been in her family for several generations. And he lived in a mobile home that happened to be next door to the college. But when they met, none of that mattered and fireworks lit up the sky. “In just a few minutes, my life would be changed forever,” the author explains. “It was like the Beatles.”

SODIUM: 1 HARBINGER, by Stephen Arsenault

In 1957, a group of wilderness adventurers are confronted with the unexpected. They are forced to defend themselves against an unworldly enemy. Will man’s first encounter with aliens force them to run or will they stand and fight? This is the first thriller in the SODIUM series. Follow along as the unwitting group determines their own fate.

Happy Reading & Happy Weekend, Everyone!

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I HOPE YOU FIND ME is now free on Smashwords!

IHYFM CoverAfter a deadly pandemic destroys society, Riley decides to leave her home and the burned remains of her family behind in search of other survivors. At first, with only a dog at her side, she realizes quickly that the dead might still remain in the streets of San Diego. Once Riley meets up with others, the real threat becomes living people, and not the deadly virus that has spread across the globe. Will she survive? Would you?

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Want a Free Book?

I know – silly question, right? This is just a friendly reminder post that the first book of The Station Series, Dying to Forget, is FREE online! Where can you grab up your ebook copy?





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Grab the first book in this bestselling series, and find out why readers have fallen in love with Piper Willow.


Piper Willow dies the summer after her high school graduation but she doesn’t make it to Heaven or Hell…instead she finds herself in a spiritual terminal called the Station. She’s given only two choices: Return to Earth as the subconscious for a person in need of some outside assistance, or move on and spend an eternity lost in her own sorrow and pain.

Does Piper have what it takes to save a life – to be the nagging voice inside someone else’s head – or will she fail and end up lost and tormented in limbo…forever?


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