Suicide Prevention Week

Did you know that it’s Suicide Prevention Week? Having experienced suicide in my own family, and spending the last several years researching it for the Station series, I know a little about the topic, but I’m not a counselor or a doctor. I’m just a person, who, like so many others, has been left behind after someone has made the choice to let go. This topic, something so integrated into our society now, and such a huge stress for our youth especially, is still not talked about enough. There’s an invisible barrier up around it, which I challenge everyone to break down and discuss more, because the hardest part about losing someone to suicide is the not knowing how you could have helped them stay. And the more depression and harmful thoughts are talked about and shared, I firmly believe the more support can be given to help those in need.

No one can save the world on their own, but together, imagine what we could do for each other. If you have a moment, watch this touching and short video made by Chester Bennington’s teenage son, making a pledge to reach out if he needs it, and asking viewers to do the same.

Though it may feel like it at times, we aren’t alone. Here’s a *HUG* from me to you, take it and use it whenever you need to. If you need help, it’s okay, but don’t hold it in – call someone. The National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-TALK (8255) can provide those of you in the US with counselors to talk to. You matter.

June is bringing more Piper Willow your way!

Yep, book #4 of The Station series is releasing THIS month! If you’ve been following Piper’s journey since the beginning, then you won’t want to miss the next chapter of her story. And if the Station is new to you, why not start it now with DYING to FORGET – for free? Wondering if you’ve missed a book? Check out the complete list of Station titles below:

DYING to FORGET

DYING to REMEMBER

DYING to RETURN

NILES

MALLORY

KERRY-ANNE

All caught up? Are you ready to dive back into Piper’s mind and see what’s been happening in her world? The wait will be over soon, but in the meantime, check out this excerpt to hold you over for a few more days…

“Hi, stranger,” Sloan says.

My hands jerk off my lap and I end up sitting on them, embarrassed to be caught playing with the idea of calling Rush to me. It’s absurd to assume Sloan knows what the bracelet is for – I’ve never told him. Still, instead of looking at his face, I keep my gaze frozen to the center of his chest, staring at his shirt as if I’ve never seen it before. My focus is off. My entire being feels off, and I don’t know why.

Kerry-Anne rises to give Sloan a quick hug before pecking me on the cheek with a kiss and walking off into the crowd. She’s giving us our space, being the thoughtful friend she always is. But for some reason, I want her to stay. I want a chaperone.

Sloan sits down in her spot, his eyes watching the water at my back. “You’ve been avoiding me,” he sighs without looking up.

My words stumble out awkwardly. “I haven’t…I’ve just…things have been busy with the Ones. I didn’t mean to…” My mouth snaps shut on its own, saving me from further mortification.

“I was just joking,” he teases, turning to look up at me. One of his eyebrows is raised, sending me a silent question that I most likely don’t want to answer. “I was a jerk the last time I saw you. Sorry. My head wasn’t in the right place.”

Looking down at my feet, I nod. I know the feeling.

It wasn’t just the last time we saw each other that was strange. Our last few meetings have been…different. We talk, like we always have, about anything and everything. But there’s a shift in the relationship, from both sides. Before my mind wanders, I lock myself up, keeping away from his thoughts.

He elbows me with a smile. “That was an apology, you know.”

“Right, I know,” I lie.

“I’m getting ready to go back out.” He slaps a hand down on the water, spraying it away from us.

“That’s good,” I blurt.

Sloan lost his first assignment about two dozen Ones departures ago. We don’t have a handle on time, so I gauge it by searching through the memories of what all of us were doing then. Like all who have lost a case to suicide, there’s a bit of retreating into oneself that happens once returning to the Station. Most volunteers have been through it, but it hurts every time. I picture Mallory inside my head when I swallowed Dad’s pills, wondering just how freaked out she was the last time I closed my eyes, and how badly she wanted me to make a different decision.

I place a hand on his knee. “You’ve taken time off, attended tons of therapy sessions, even gone through your own review again, right? If you’re ready, you’ll know it.”

With a quick glance up at me, he nods. “I feel it. That…pull.”

The pull. The Station was designed to be in a constant state of motion. The minute, no, the second that a volunteer makes the drift with their assignment, the problems waiting for us at the Station fade, landing on a back shelf somewhere to be dealt with at a later time. Established volunteers are much more successful at this, surely, but even someone like Sloan, who has taken his time between cases and racked up a resume only a tenth of Kerry-Anne’s size, is able to put his issues aside while on a case. But it’s getting harder for him, and losing his last charge is a massive blow.

He surprises me by letting out a low laugh. It’s hollow, no emotion, just…sound. “I guess I don’t have to ask you how it feels to lose someone when I’m sitting right here next to you.”

“Oh.”

He shakes his head, hiding his eyes from me. “Sorry. I didn’t mean it like that. It’s just, shit, how do you look at me and not feel like a failure? How does being around me not make you question everything about what this place means? I don’t know how you do it. And I don’t even have to see my guy all the time. I’ll probably never see him again. But you being around me…does it ever bother you? I couldn’t handle being constantly reminded that I’d fucked up and let someone die.”

Wow.

– DYING to KNOW is Coming Soon – © Trish Marie Dawson

Dying to Know

“What happens once you kill yourself?”

I write fiction about suicide, but suicide is real. This Tumblr post came across my Facebook timeline and it hurts to read it. But please do. It says it all.

Despite how we may feel, we are never alone in life, and never alone in death.

 

And Book #3 is Almost Ready for iTunes!

Just a few hours, Stationers…in just a few hours Dying to Return will be up and live for you awesome Apple users that have been patiently waiting! I do hope you will ALL enjoy books 1 – 3 of the Station Series (so much so, that you can’t wait to run back to iTunes and leave a review, *wink*).

Sometime during the summer you should see book #4 on the list as well. *double wink*

Happy Reading!

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My First BookTube Interview

So, I’m relatively new to the term ‘BookTube’ and up till about two weeks ago, I hadn’t even heard of it. If you don’t know what it is either, I assure you – it’s not complicated – it’s YouTube’s name for the bookish who blog about their current reading material, and what’s scheduled to come. Some even do interviews with authors and other readers. Book Nerd Paradise is one such spot for YA Fantasy, and they reached out to me earlier this Fall to come on their YouTube channel and talk about Dying to Forget. How could I say no?! Take a peek when you have time (there’s a signed print book giveaway involved for those who view and leave a comment) and please don’t forget to give the video a ‘like’!


 

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Thank you for having me on, Book Nerd Paradise! And *clears throat* just a teensy little disclaimer for the viewers: this is my first YouTube interview (my first video interview, in fact), and I have some learning to do about lighting and camera quality and posture so that I don’t look as puffy as a marshmallow! In my darkish living room, in front of my laptop camera, I’ve got quite the implied squishy double-chin thing going on that is not flattering in the least. lol But, all joking aside, please let me know if you’d like to see more of this kind of thing on YouTube, or here on the site. Definitely take a peek at some of the other authors featured on the Book Nerd Paradise channel, and give BNP a subscription and/or follow online for more YA Fantasy interviews!

Happy Monday, y’all!


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